Hajj 1438/2017

Prophet Ibrahim (a.s)!!!

His tests have been made into ibadahs for us! 

Hajj, Umrah, Sa’ee, Stoning of Jamarat, sacrificing animals; enacting whatever he did for the sake of Allah. May Allah accept from us as he accepted from him. Ameen

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TIME

A lot has been said all around the world about 2016 to be the worst year around the internet.. and this made me thinking about how the facebook memes change our mindset or influence us in one way or the other. Surely, we did see q massacre in Syria, we lost Edhi Sahab and Junaid Jamshed but are we naive enough to let go of all the blessings Allah has showered upon us during this year to be sabotaged  by a few unfortunate events?

Let us just take a moment and thank our Lord for everything.

Death: A Wakeup Call

So much has been written about death and it being inevitable that whatever that I am going to write here may not seem something new.

A few weeks ago, an extended family membet succumbed to the deadly disease of breast cancer. She had been fighting it for over an year; when she found out about it, she was already stage four. She was just 35 and had lost a son to brain tumor a couple of months back! Though all of us knew what she is heading for, we all hoped that she could buy more time for herself. I didn’t see her much but she was there at weddings and dawats and I remember her ever smiling beautiful face. I just couldn’t get it out of my mind. I thought about her other kids, her mother and father and a heavy weight just settled down my chest. Some deaths just leave you heavy with sadness…

And last week, the heaviness, the sadness thickened when I recieved the message that Junaid Jamshed passed away in a plane crash. I couldn’t believe it!!! His passing away was… is like as if someone in my family has died. I never met him, never talked to him. Though I don’t want to say it but I grew up listening to his songs and memorizing them and then I quit listening to music and he stopped singing… I used to listen to his nasheeds… I had differences with him on so many levels and I don’t know why but Allah Subhanahu wa Taala had put love for him in my heart ( not the kind of love we see today but a kind of love that one Muslim has for another), that his sudden passing came as a shock, that I prayed for him in my Salah. I know someone was criticizing him last night about something, and I couldn’t help thinking that if this person had such a problem with his way of doing things, why didn’t he do something about it. I was saddened even more and angered that now that he is gone, can we not pray for him. Would we not like someone praying for us when we are no more just because we were their fellow Muslim brother/sister in Islam. I prayed for every departed soul of the plane crash but why Junaid Jamshed came in limelight is because he was a household figure, he was in our lives by one means or another.

And admist all this is Aleppo!!! It will forever be etched in our book of deeds that all we did was share facebook posts about Aleppo and didn’t lend a helping hand to those dying in the streets of Syria. A bunch of people being bombed by Syria’a Assad’s forces and his allies and we watched from the comfort of our houses doing nothing. The images coming of babies being killed or pulled out of rubble, men and women dying and hospitals being bombed and the ladies asking if they can commit suicide before Bashar Assaad’s men rape and kill them, of men asking if they can kill their kin before Assaad’s forces torture them and play around their dead bodies, are just too heart wrenching. This breaks my heart and puts things in perspective too… why am I always complaining when I have warm bed, food on the table. My kids were sick and then I fell ill, I remember how claustrophobic things became for me with sick kids and no end in sight but what of the mothers of Syrian children, or teenagers or men and the never ending bombardment and firing and fear and I feel that my troubles weigh nilly willy on that scale. I saw a footage of a mother asking her dying son to recite shahadah and repeating again and again that,’ darling! Say LA ILAHA ILLALLAH’ and made me feel so small and so shallow. I am nothing compared to them. I do not have that level of imaan that can stand such test. May Allah make it easier for them.

Death, that we defer to think about or that we think will only come to us when we are old and have prepared for the Hereafter. Recent turn of events show us that we do not know when will it come and how will we die. I haven’t prepared much in this regard… I am.not prepared at all… I do not have one good deed that will ensure a safe passage to Jannah and what if on the Day of Judgement, I stand in front of my Lord and He asked me about my brothers and sisters in Islam in Syria, Palestine, Sudan or Kashmir or Myanmar, what answer will  I have up my sleeve.

Death will come to us all but let us strive to be the person to whom death shall bring glad tidings rather than sad demise.

‘Maut ko samjhein hain ghafil ikhtetam-e-zindagi

Hai ye sham-e-zindagi, subh-e-dawam-e-zindagi’

Mathematics with a Toddler

‘I am younger than my little brother (who’s five months old!)’, she insisted.

‘Okay!’

‘ But.. I am older than Arqam ( who’s a family friend and is 7 years old!)’

‘Okay! But how’s that even possible?!’

Placing her hands on my face and looking me in the eye,’ Look! I am sooo big!’

‘I know!’

‘But I still am younger than my little brother!’

Yes, you guessed right! She is three years old!

 

 

Guilt

As more videos come from the war stricken Aleppo, I fail to see at them without the guilt of having food on my table, sleeping safely and living without the constant fear of being bombed. And above all I feel guilty that I am not able to do a single thing for them, not able to stop it, not able to make things easy for them.

As a Muslim, I feel ashamed of not being able to do nothing for my Muslim brother in distress… under opression.

Aleppo!!! I wish I could physically punish those who are doing this to you! I wish I were able to pull you out of this mess! I wish I'd be able to help you in any way and every way I can!

Leap Year

I was going through my page, which I don’t usually, and found out I rarely write now unless it is a big eventor something. I guess having kids around don’t give you enough time to concentrate and write because you are constantly being distracted. Anyhow, tjis was a leap year, and it did create a lot of ripples around Pakistan; Mumtaz Qadri was hanged, and Sharmeen Obeid Chinoy won an oscar. You might have guess by now that I am here to create some ripples too…

Anyway, I am not going to dwell on whether whatever Qadri did was right or wrong or if he is going to hell or heaven and stuff. I am just going to dwell on the scene set up by everyone around. Strange as it is when Saulat Mirza was about to be executed, we saw long debates on the television screens, his last moments, his confessions, his wife and later everything was aired on live television. But this time around it was all hushed up and it seems as if being brushed under the carpet. Why was there a need to do an execution with such secrecy and hushed tones? One might wonder what is cooking that this was to be done with such urgency. I would call it urgency because the reason behind the whole Taseer murder case was one lady and she still has her case pending for soo many years! Anyway, people have reacted as we would have expected but the reaction not being shown on the television shows that something really is fishy. Anyhow, this is what happens when the leaders are corrupt, the judicial system is flawed and justice is denied or delayed! All I am going to say is that his execution has set motives and there is something really fishy going on behind the camera!

About the Oscar winning spree, I agree that Pakistan has its problems and issues but the only issues the ‘white browns’ highlight are either women being subjected to violence, rape and are not allowed education and we have people like Chinoy, Malala and Mukhtara Mai in the global picture. We don’t see any doctors, teachers or social workers anywhere. It is weird that the women’s protection bill is being passed in Punjab where the rural population is slave to Chaudhries and Waderas and they are not allowed to get even proper education! Remember how they corrupted Hudood Ordinance bill, that the rape victim has to provide four eye witnesses and all other evidences(medical, etc.) were invalid, giving the rapist more free hand than justice to the victim! The idea is that the amendments of all these laws only provide the powerful with freedom to do anything and victim doesn’t get any justice. The laws are made for poor people only, whereas, rich are above the law! I just do not understand the fact that when we fail to change the whole system from way up to the grass roots, how can  we be able to say that passing a bill will make all tge difference!?

And people do not realize that implementing the law of Allah will make things smoother and it will give justice to everyone.

Devastating Results

Yesterday it happened and it was all over the news and the facebook feed; a boy and a girl of tenth grade, killed themselves, because they thought that they were in love and wont be united by the world! And the media got all crazy asking if it were them who shoved them to such fate? People were asking if it was their parents? Or the school administration or the teachers? And for so many this was just what our future holds…

We do not have a television at our place. My kids watch stuff on youtube under heavy scrutiny and when I am watching something, I make sure my kids are asleep. Knowing that my kids have a very sharp memory and they can recall incidents that took place more than two years ago, I am compelled to watch over for not only what they watch but even of what I speak! (Not to mention my elder one just turned five) Why I am relating all this is because media does have a lot of influence on us. The kids who committed mutual suicide were only kids, not knowing what actually love is, or life is or what is happening beyond the boundaries of their little lives! They don’t know how Syrians are living their lives and how they are drowing at sea to get to safer lands! This is the hard reality! We feel it is okay for our kids to watch TV and movies, not realizing the long lasting impacts that would have on the psychological development of a child! What are you exposing them to… For a change, talk to your kids about life, about their surroundings, about the world we live in, and about their feelings and help them channelize those feelings.

We have moved away from the realities of life and we yet not take heed!


Insomniac

I don’t know why but the feeling of butterflies in my stomach, the racing heart rate and the constant buzzing of my brain is not letting me have enough sleep. What has happened which is making me so fidgety and so anxious? He was about to be hanged but the whole poltical scenario changed after his confession was aired on the television and not only that, he named big names who were involved in drenching the soil with the blood of innocent people.

It was an anticipated event because Altaf Hussain, the leader of MQM, denied ever talking to him or knowing him and hence what would have been the reaction of those who support MQM… but alas we will never know I guess. But this has indeed created doubts and questions in the minds of those who support them that how far will he go in order to protect himself. Will he deny ever having a contact with the Rabta Committee too?

It is not just about Saulat Mirza, it is about the generations of murderers and target killers that were produced; will there be no justice for the innocent lives that were brutally murdered because MQM had differences with them? A lot of questions are raised with it. Who raised these people? Who trained them? When intelligence agencies, military forces and other law enforcement agencies had proofs and they know how their network runs, why was there such a delay? Why a military government provided for them and why did they allow them to hold a militant wing? How were they able to steal from NATO containers and why didn’t Musharraf do anything about them? Why, suddenly, military has this intense desire to get rid of them? A very valid question would be, Why were they allowed to make a militant wing and why was military not concerned about innocent people dying everyday? Why is it that the law enforcement agencies do not give a damn about the common man?

I can’t sleep. My mind is wide awake and thinking too much and I can’t just stop thinking about it…

Justice Denied

And when the songs were made by the ISPR and their thinktank invoked the emotional nerve of the people, we were shocked to hear that the Baldia Town Factory incident was not an accident but was a crime conducted by the political party, MQM; to whom the owner couldn’t pay the ransom money. The media did try to cover the report but it didn’t get as much air time as the previous incident of the APS! And this kills me from the inside that why one fraction of a society is treated with so much royalty while other rots in the dark corners of a dungeon.

The Military, Intelligence Agencies and the government made sudden arrangements for the formation of the military courts in the wake of the Peshawar attack and the culprits awaiting capital punishment were soon sent to the gallows but… BUT the only people who were given punshments were those who were involved in the attack against the former dictator, Musharraf or the likes! This again would lead to a lot of debate as to why the others did not get as much attention? Why was there a need to create a divide between those who tried to kill Musharraf and those who, for a long time, have done targetted killings of the civillians of Pakistan? Why did it take two years for just the report to come out in the open that people were burnt inside the factory by the armed wing of the political party. Now Dawn Newspaper reports that the suspect has gone missing! Why is it that the law enforcing agencies have tried to bring such peace to Karachi?!

The incident of Baldiya Town is not something that we can ignore so lightly but why is it that they have said that they will write a report again? Have they made a deal with the culprits or the poltical party? But THE MOST IMPORTANT QUESTION WOULD BE: WHY DID NOT THEY SENT THIS CASE TO A MILITARY COURT?? When APS got them all charged up and they wanted a full throttle impact on Waziristan, why did not those 300 innocent lives, lost to the inhumane terrorist act of the armed wing of MQM, enraged those who wear uniforms? WHY Oh! WHY? Weren’t those people Pakistani???

I am at loss to describe how I feel for those who die everyday because they are present there where the incident would take place. They are killed for no reason that is comprehensible to the humannlogic. And the class divide makes it worse, where one man, responsible for the deaths of many can be a political leader and is not bound by the law whereas people like Dr. Afia are being sent to torture cells for dollars!

Double Standards

And the song blared on the smart phone of my husband;

‘Barda Dushman bana phirrta hai!’

And I kept thinking about the medressah kids that died in a drone attack; the kids that were burnt by white phosphorus by the Musharraf regime! My heart bleeds for the kids that died in Army Public School. I imagine myself in the shoes of those mothers and I can’t imagine the pain they must be feeling every second of everyday. But at the same time, I cannot forget the mothers of the drone victims and the fact that they go through the same thing. Does this very song make one class more equal than the other? I must say, to me, it seems so. Kids, killed in the name of zarb-e-azb or in the name of revenge, I see those, who target them, as villians, murderers and terrorists, be it those who wear uniform or those who do not.

A lot of questions have been raised with the Peshawar incident but I wont dwell on that but I think the CM of KPK, the Army Chief and DG ISI should have resigned and accepted that it was their fault that this kind of incident had happened when they were incharge. Making songs wont make it up to the flaws and loopholes in their plans, but rather makes it seem as if they are not yet serious about it all. As if this song will do justice to the dead. And by the way, on a positive note, this song will comply more to thie children of Gaza, who die everyday and are killed and targeted just because they are Arabs, Palestinians and Muslims. What happened in APS, happens everyday there, and we do not consider that a part of our world. How can we…  we cannot even give the same response to the victims of drones as to the children of APS. Thank you ISPR for creating a class divide that the kids of armed forces are more equal than those of ‘bloody civillians’.

And there is nothing wrong with the shadi affair of the Khan or is there? That is the question! Nikah in Islam is supposed to be an “announcement” and not a secret affair. Allah has made Nikah very honorable and not something to be rediculed. I just have one issue: when Khan said that he has nothing to hide then why was there a need to make it into a conspiracy?!

And the most important of it all was the way Charlie Hebdo was carried out. How can one person always keep a passport when going for something like this? 9/11 rings in my ears at this all. Anyway, to sum things up all I would like to say is that Muslims tend to be a soft target when it comes to that. It has been happening since for ever and they do it delibrately in the name of ‘freedom of expression’, knowing that it is not freedom of expression when you cannot say a word against Holocaust and say everything about Islam because jews are more equal than the rest of the world!