TIME

A lot has been said all around the world about 2016 to be the worst year around the internet.. and this made me thinking about how the facebook memes change our mindset or influence us in one way or the other. Surely, we did see q massacre in Syria, we lost Edhi Sahab and Junaid Jamshed but are we naive enough to let go of all the blessings Allah has showered upon us during this year to be sabotaged  by a few unfortunate events?

Let us just take a moment and thank our Lord for everything.

Death: A Wakeup Call

So much has been written about death and it being inevitable that whatever that I am going to write here may not seem something new.

A few weeks ago, an extended family membet succumbed to the deadly disease of breast cancer. She had been fighting it for over an year; when she found out about it, she was already stage four. She was just 35 and had lost a son to brain tumor a couple of months back! Though all of us knew what she is heading for, we all hoped that she could buy more time for herself. I didn’t see her much but she was there at weddings and dawats and I remember her ever smiling beautiful face. I just couldn’t get it out of my mind. I thought about her other kids, her mother and father and a heavy weight just settled down my chest. Some deaths just leave you heavy with sadness…

And last week, the heaviness, the sadness thickened when I recieved the message that Junaid Jamshed passed away in a plane crash. I couldn’t believe it!!! His passing away was… is like as if someone in my family has died. I never met him, never talked to him. Though I don’t want to say it but I grew up listening to his songs and memorizing them and then I quit listening to music and he stopped singing… I used to listen to his nasheeds… I had differences with him on so many levels and I don’t know why but Allah Subhanahu wa Taala had put love for him in my heart ( not the kind of love we see today but a kind of love that one Muslim has for another), that his sudden passing came as a shock, that I prayed for him in my Salah. I know someone was criticizing him last night about something, and I couldn’t help thinking that if this person had such a problem with his way of doing things, why didn’t he do something about it. I was saddened even more and angered that now that he is gone, can we not pray for him. Would we not like someone praying for us when we are no more just because we were their fellow Muslim brother/sister in Islam. I prayed for every departed soul of the plane crash but why Junaid Jamshed came in limelight is because he was a household figure, he was in our lives by one means or another.

And admist all this is Aleppo!!! It will forever be etched in our book of deeds that all we did was share facebook posts about Aleppo and didn’t lend a helping hand to those dying in the streets of Syria. A bunch of people being bombed by Syria’a Assad’s forces and his allies and we watched from the comfort of our houses doing nothing. The images coming of babies being killed or pulled out of rubble, men and women dying and hospitals being bombed and the ladies asking if they can commit suicide before Bashar Assaad’s men rape and kill them, of men asking if they can kill their kin before Assaad’s forces torture them and play around their dead bodies, are just too heart wrenching. This breaks my heart and puts things in perspective too… why am I always complaining when I have warm bed, food on the table. My kids were sick and then I fell ill, I remember how claustrophobic things became for me with sick kids and no end in sight but what of the mothers of Syrian children, or teenagers or men and the never ending bombardment and firing and fear and I feel that my troubles weigh nilly willy on that scale. I saw a footage of a mother asking her dying son to recite shahadah and repeating again and again that,’ darling! Say LA ILAHA ILLALLAH’ and made me feel so small and so shallow. I am nothing compared to them. I do not have that level of imaan that can stand such test. May Allah make it easier for them.

Death, that we defer to think about or that we think will only come to us when we are old and have prepared for the Hereafter. Recent turn of events show us that we do not know when will it come and how will we die. I haven’t prepared much in this regard… I am.not prepared at all… I do not have one good deed that will ensure a safe passage to Jannah and what if on the Day of Judgement, I stand in front of my Lord and He asked me about my brothers and sisters in Islam in Syria, Palestine, Sudan or Kashmir or Myanmar, what answer will  I have up my sleeve.

Death will come to us all but let us strive to be the person to whom death shall bring glad tidings rather than sad demise.

‘Maut ko samjhein hain ghafil ikhtetam-e-zindagi

Hai ye sham-e-zindagi, subh-e-dawam-e-zindagi’

Double Standards

And the song blared on the smart phone of my husband;

‘Barda Dushman bana phirrta hai!’

And I kept thinking about the medressah kids that died in a drone attack; the kids that were burnt by white phosphorus by the Musharraf regime! My heart bleeds for the kids that died in Army Public School. I imagine myself in the shoes of those mothers and I can’t imagine the pain they must be feeling every second of everyday. But at the same time, I cannot forget the mothers of the drone victims and the fact that they go through the same thing. Does this very song make one class more equal than the other? I must say, to me, it seems so. Kids, killed in the name of zarb-e-azb or in the name of revenge, I see those, who target them, as villians, murderers and terrorists, be it those who wear uniform or those who do not.

A lot of questions have been raised with the Peshawar incident but I wont dwell on that but I think the CM of KPK, the Army Chief and DG ISI should have resigned and accepted that it was their fault that this kind of incident had happened when they were incharge. Making songs wont make it up to the flaws and loopholes in their plans, but rather makes it seem as if they are not yet serious about it all. As if this song will do justice to the dead. And by the way, on a positive note, this song will comply more to thie children of Gaza, who die everyday and are killed and targeted just because they are Arabs, Palestinians and Muslims. What happened in APS, happens everyday there, and we do not consider that a part of our world. How can we…  we cannot even give the same response to the victims of drones as to the children of APS. Thank you ISPR for creating a class divide that the kids of armed forces are more equal than those of ‘bloody civillians’.

And there is nothing wrong with the shadi affair of the Khan or is there? That is the question! Nikah in Islam is supposed to be an “announcement” and not a secret affair. Allah has made Nikah very honorable and not something to be rediculed. I just have one issue: when Khan said that he has nothing to hide then why was there a need to make it into a conspiracy?!

And the most important of it all was the way Charlie Hebdo was carried out. How can one person always keep a passport when going for something like this? 9/11 rings in my ears at this all. Anyway, to sum things up all I would like to say is that Muslims tend to be a soft target when it comes to that. It has been happening since for ever and they do it delibrately in the name of ‘freedom of expression’, knowing that it is not freedom of expression when you cannot say a word against Holocaust and say everything about Islam because jews are more equal than the rest of the world!

Life

While going through my things today, I came  across something which a teacher said during one of his classes and which I can relate  to right now while preparing for my phonology exam.

“We have reduced life to just futile exercises of doing thingd which somehow have no effect upon afterlife.”

*sigh*

Reminds me one other teacher who used to say, ” The purpose of my life is to live a life of purpose.”

And I guess we all should at least realise that our lives should have a purpose and a purpose that will have a positive effect upon our afterlives. What will life be like if we don’t have an afterlife; chaotic, futile, purposeless etc.

Na ho marna tu jeenay ka maza kia”

The Touchstone…

http://portail.islamboutique.fr/gaza2008/

Narrated (Abdullah bin Umar): Allah’s Messenger (P.B.U.H) said,

“A Muslim is a brother of another Muslim, so he should not oppress him, nor should he hand him over to  an oppressor. Whoever fulfill the needs of his brother, Allah will fulfill his need; whoever brought his (Muslim) brother out of a discomfort, Allah will bring him out of the discomforts of the Day of Ressurrection, and whoever screened a Muslim, Allah will screen him on the Day of Ressurection”

– Sahih Al Bukhari (The Book of Mazalim

Narrated Anas: The Prophet (SAW) said, 

“None of you will have faith till he likes for his (Muslim) brother what he likes for himself”

-Sahih Al Bukhari (The Book of Belief i.e. Faith)

 

Today’s scenario at Gaza is a TEST for us all… how many of us actually feel for them. There have been alarming statements from Muslim Countries denouncing their support for their Palestinian brothers. 

We all have to die someday. If not now then tomorrow or the the next moment. The realization that death is inevitable and we will be questioned about everything defines the course of our lives sahih ma’non mein. Has this realisation defined our lives?! Has death defined our lives?! 

Think again! We will die… Have we prepared ourselves for the eternal life that’s awaiting us?

Death

I wake up to find myself in utter darkness. I can’t hear anyone. I wait in the same position to see if I can see even a single beam of light. But no matter how wide I open my eyes and put strain on them, it’s still black everywhere. Suddenly, I realise the weight  of something over me crashing my ribcage. I feel agitated and worried. I stretch out my hands to get it off but I cannot. I can’t breathe. The weight is over-whelming. I am trying to scream and yet nothing comes out of my mouth…