The Royal Visit

Oh my! From where should I start? There are soon many thoughts in my mind right now that I don’t think I’ll be able to organize them on paper (digital paper that is)!

Anyway, the whole affair, is given soo much attention, so much details that it makes one think if the whole thing is actually real? I mean how can one go out of his means and back on his words and everything that he stands for just because a royal person is coming. Maybe, it is all because money makes the world go round!

Anyway, when the royal plane entered the Pakistani airspace, the PAF’s F-16 fighter pilots gave it a royal protocol, I am sure that a country whose whole economy is drowned and is in jeopardy, could have afforded it. The whole of Capital was shut down, I am sure we are a nation that could have afforded it! The whole of Ex-PM house or a University( still don’t know what it really is) was refurbished, given a face lift, made fit for the Royal Prince. I wonder where that money came from?! The shahana protocol seems as if we are a very rich nation and would welcome all our guests like that but hey!money makes the world go round! We would sell our self and our self respect for money. The other details just leave the mind of a very stupid person like me bonkers. Sadgi and simplicity gone down the drain!

The most respected Prime Minister saved fifty bucks of the chauffeur by driving the car himself!


What’s In For Us…

The Prime Minister has gone back on his words of not taking loans soo many times that people are either mocking him or blindly supporting his way of doing things. I agree with the previous views of IK that no one would give you money because they like you. There are terms and conditions that make you their slaves when you ask for money.

The other day, IK’s advisor said that it is only because that the Prime Minister is an honest man that the world is coming in to invest in Pakistan. Like seriously ?! Are they that naive?? The colonists invested their interests not in the people who were loyal to their tribes, people or country but in those who were loyal to them. A lot of questions have been raised in the recent money and financial and business investments that are being done in Pakistan. Are they all for the benefit of Pakistan and local people? Only time will tell as CPEC has not yet done anything for the local people of the Makran Coast.

Recently, the information minister said that they will crack down any extremist propaganda on social media against the government. Does that mean that we are living under the dictatorial regime? Why is there such hush hush about the terms and conditions on which IMF and rest of the world’s bailout package for Pakistan??

I don’t know about the rest of you, but all this is very unsettling for me… There is always more to it than what seems and the facade may paint a rosy picture for us all but the molded interior will soon eat up its beauty.

The Blame Game Continues

The incomplete JIT report is here and it confirms that the driver,’Zeeshan’, was a terrorist. The so called ‘operation’ was done on the information provided by the Intelligence Agencies! The Operation was done in such a professional way that they opened fire at the car after hitting the car and the car stopped. Then they took out minor children and opened fire again and then left the children at a petrol station. Wow!

I mean it is the same old Pakistan not the ‘Naya Pakistan’ as it was claimed to be by the C.M. Buzdar or Chauhaan or F. Chaudhary! The CTD officers, who carried out the so-called operation, will be tried under the section 320 and the I.G being transferred or dismissed. How can the higher officials roam around freely like that. Is this how an organisations carry out ‘operations’… what is this non-sense?! Why weren’t any arrests made? Why was there a need to open fire at point blank? If it really was an operation, where was the backup team? Who was giving instructions from the headquarters? Which intelligence agency was involved? Who gave the orders? Why didn’t they secure the area?

The whole JIT is questionable! This is the same game which the previous governments played! This has soo many loopholes that the whole report seems a joke. The same cover-up games so that the people responsible can get away and the aam awaam can be fooled!!!

Or is this a going to be the catalyst to extend the military court’s time period. Just like Swat flogging incident that triggered Swat operation! It seems to be a part of a bigger plan; a plan that will trigger other operations.. a plan that can ensure that we do need military courts, we need jojnt military action plans, a plan that US can again infiltrate and do what they did durjng Musharraf’s era. I still have this strong feeling that the US delegation that came and said that PM Imran Khan has been right all alond and we need to go for joint military operations has something to do with this incident! Only time will tell…

All of us had soo many expectations from.this government and yet it has failed us in such a short span of time. This incident will always be marked as the lowest point of the current government as not only they failed to point at the culprits, but also provided leverage to them!

What ‘tabdeeli’?!

Sahiwal massacre has left it’s marks deep upon my soul. I still can not fathom the fact that the killers are still at large. The Prime Minister has said that after he returns from Qatar, he will give ‘exemplary punishment’ to those involved and will bring reforms in thr Police Department. The Law Minister still claims that the driver that was killed was a terrorist and the family was ‘collateral damage’.

There are a numbers of questions raised with the incident that need to be addressed and Prime Minister thought that Qatar visit is of prime importance rather than providing justice to those who were murdered brutally in cold blood. The Prime Minister has waited this long to bring reforms in the Police Department! The DPO Pakpatan was transferred within a night when he stopped the car of an influential person, the IG was dismissed in a matter of seconds. The rhetoric continues sadly that some people are definitely more equal than the others. Providing justice to the victims of the families is of no importance, but meeting with the U.S. senator was more important. Sadly, we are all standing where we were… not soo much of ‘tabdeeli’ in the way we deal with things.

So the U.S delegation came to meet the Prime Minister and later in the press conference said that Prime Minister Imran Khan was always right ,(smirk) providing the so much celebrated celebrity with a lollipop and later said that we want ‘joint military operations’ for making Afghanistan a better place! The choice of words still resonate in my ears as the Prime Minister said that we will not be used as ‘hired guns’ but perhaps as ‘coalition partners’. The whole Musharraf era is literally playing at thr back of my mind. The whole debate of military court’s extension debate seems to be a part of this whole larger picture which has started to show it’s true colours. The way CTD executed the whole Sahiwal incident, this is how military exectues mist of it’s operations too. We only hear the ISPR’s side of the story, where is the rest of the picture. Only a fool will believe everything they say.

It is not the start of a new era, it is just how history repeats itself…


My taya( father’s elder brother) was shot dead 9 years ago when he tried to stop the burglars from snatching the phone away from my husband at the gates of his resident. I did not witness the exact moment as I was inside his house while he was greeting my husband. But I can not still detach myself from the exact memories of that night, I still feel these pangs of pain inside my heart whenever I recall that incident, sometimes I just sit still and recount those moments in my head. Sometimes I can not still believe that my uncle just passed away in an instant, in a second, without any goodbyes, without any last words to us, his sons and his daughters. My husband has not yet gotten over the trauma of actually seeing an old man being shot dead in span of seconds as that old man tried to stop those phone snatchers. Why am I repeating all this after soo many years…

Yesterday, the Sahiwal incident happened. The CTD people killed innocent civillians at short range and took the children from the car and left them at the petrol station! I mean what kind of CTD protocol was that?! If the car had stopped, why was there an urge to open fire at everyone and kill them all without any prior investigation as to who was sitting in the car and what was actually happening. Will those kids ever be able to out of this trauma? How can any ‘financial aid’ ever compensate for the loss of thise children. A thirteen year old girl was brutally murdered! A mother was repeatedly shot! A father was grilled with bullets! What was this? I can NOT fathom the whole thing. I am flabbergasted!!! I am shocked!!! I am devastated! I am heartbroken and I am ANGRY! The tweets of the leaders of the country are just as pathetic and provide no solace whatsoever to the grieving family or the people of Pakistan.

We do not want military courts for the same reason. We do not know how many people have the military killed in the name of all those operations that started off during the time of Musharraf. Who knows what ISPR is covering. The innocent people killed via drones, the people who were killed in Waziristan, or during Zarb-e-azb, who is responsible for even one innocent life that was taken?! We do not want military courts because we do not know if those people are terrorists or not?! Was Dr. Afia a terrorist?

We do not want military courts! Period!

May Allah protect us from the zulm of these zalimuns. Ameen.

My Hero

There was no one like Umar (radiAllahu anhu)!

The Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu alaehi wassallam) said, the path that Umar chooses to walk on, Satan runs away from it.

When I feel desperate, depressed and anxious, I become a very bitter person even when I don’t want to. I want that bitterness to channel into something which is positive, yet I fail at it and I indulge in YouTube and Pinterest trying to deviate myself from the ongoing events.

In the midst of all the depression and anxiety and bitterness and harshness that my heart was filled with, and life felt like not going anywhere, I prayed today after my Salah that, ‘ Please… O Supreme Being!!!fill my heart with contentment.’ And I was for very this reason the stories of reverts came up on my youtube wall and I stumbled upon the story of the second Khalifa Umar ( radiaAllahu anhu). Subhan Allah.

I have no idea how but Allah’s work is amazing when it comes to filling your heart with the love of people whom sometimes you barely know. And SubhanAllah, clearly one of the signs of Allah that he has instilled the love of those who sacrificed their everything for Allah, in our hearts even though we haven’t seen them, haven’t met them. We love them because the Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu alaehi wasallam) loved them. We love them because they loved the Prophet the way he deserved to be loved. And we admire them for their unwavering belief, commitments. And we want to be like them knowing fully well that we can never be like them but they are our heroes and our models. SubhanAllah.

We feel down low when minute things hit us, and we fail to get out of that misery and we think life is unjust and unfair. But when we hear the story of these people, and how they lived and how much they sacrificed, we see how little we are as a person, how little we are as humans and in the pit of our hearts, how little faith we have in our Rabb.

May Allah protect us all and save our hearts from turning into stones and fill our hearts with love for those whom He love. Ameen.